My last snackThank you to everyone for the kind words and encouragement after yesterday's post. I know so many of us face the weight issue a some point in our lives. We all hit our wall at different paces and mine was yesterday.
I am happy with who I am and I am fine with the way I look, though I do have momentary hissy fits when something just doesn't fit the way it once did. I just know that I can look better and I can feel better. The feeling better is a big deal for me. I don't like feeling drained and this extra weight is doing nothing for my already bum knees. I do plan on swimming, me saying I didn't want to be in a swimsuit was one of those momentary hissy fits. I know it's the best way for me to workout without killing my knees and I am lucky enough to be able to use the base pool. Now I just have to take back all of my goggles from Nate...seeing as I had to keep giving him mine.
I'm not going to go all diet crazy. I love food too much for that and lets be honest there is no way I can or ever will stick to a diet. I will eat smaller portions, I will eat more fresh things, I will replace sweets with things like yogurt, I will cook at home. I will figure out what works for me and go from there.
Of course I had to have one last defiant act last night. I went for the Cool Ranch Doritos. I was up way too late, which leads me to being snacky. Yet another thing I am going to have to work with. I rummaged the chip bin only to keep coming up empty. Then I felt it...that slick foil-y bag. I didn't bother to see what decade they were from...I just ripped them open. I bit into one and was less than pleased. A few more made me realize that they were beyond stale. You win healthy eating...you win. Into the trash they went and off to bed I slunked.
This morning I threw myself onto our Wii Fit to see what exactly the damage is. You see we don't own a scale. Well we did. When we moved here we bought one. Nate didn't quite realize how crazy I could really be. I went batso crazy with weighing myself every.freaking.day. I was nuts. Then one day the scale was gone. Nate had removed the temptation. Now the only way I can weigh myself in on the Wii Fit and really that takes too much time. I have to turn on the Wii, put in the CD, load the game, turn on the Wii Fit board and then do a bunch of random crap to get my weight. As much as I love watching my Mii balloon up in size to visually show my weight...I love eating more. Plus I can look down and see a visual of my weight...thankyouverymuch.
Whew...okay tangent done for the moment. My Mii ballooned up to a wopping 186lbs and says I have a BMI of 29.20. So I'm sitting at the line of being not just overweight...but obese. Fan-freaking-tastic. Oh and I'm 5'7", just to throw that out there.
Time to get back onto the Wii Fit board and do something physical for the day. This is going to be an interesting journey. With my fat Mii mocking me all the way.
Well here goes something.