My last snack

4/06/2010 12:13:00 PM Ashley 11 Comments

Thank you to everyone for the kind words and encouragement after yesterday's post. I know so many of us face the weight issue a some point in our lives. We all hit our wall at different paces and mine was yesterday.

I am happy with who I am and I am fine with the way I look, though I do have momentary hissy fits when something just doesn't fit the way it once did. I just know that I can look better and I can feel better. The feeling better is a big deal for me. I don't like feeling drained and this extra weight is doing nothing for my already bum knees. I do plan on swimming, me saying I didn't want to be in a swimsuit was one of those momentary hissy fits. I know it's the best way for me to workout without killing my knees and I am lucky enough to be able to use the base pool. Now I just have to take back all of my goggles from Nate...seeing as I had to keep giving him mine.

I'm not going to go all diet crazy. I love food too much for that and lets be honest there is no way I can or ever will stick to a diet. I will eat smaller portions, I will eat more fresh things, I will replace sweets with things like yogurt, I will cook at home. I will figure out what works for me and go from there.

Of course I had to have one last defiant act last night. I went for the Cool Ranch Doritos. I was up way too late, which leads me to being snacky. Yet another thing I am going to have to work with. I rummaged the chip bin only to keep coming up empty. Then I felt it...that slick foil-y bag. I didn't bother to see what decade they were from...I just ripped them open. I bit into one and was less than pleased. A few more made me realize that they were beyond stale. You win healthy win. Into the trash they went and off to bed I slunked.

This morning I threw myself onto our Wii Fit to see what exactly the damage is. You see we don't own a scale. Well we did. When we moved here we bought one. Nate didn't quite realize how crazy I could really be. I went batso crazy with weighing myself I was nuts. Then one day the scale was gone. Nate had removed the temptation. Now the only way I can weigh myself in on the Wii Fit and really that takes too much time. I have to turn on the Wii, put in the CD, load the game, turn on the Wii Fit board and then do a bunch of random crap to get my weight. As much as I love watching my Mii balloon up in size to visually show my weight...I love eating more. Plus I can look down and see a visual of my weight...thankyouverymuch.

Whew...okay tangent done for the moment. My Mii ballooned up to a wopping 186lbs and says I have a BMI of 29.20. So I'm sitting at the line of being not just overweight...but obese. Fan-freaking-tastic. Oh and I'm 5'7", just to throw that out there.


Time to get back onto the Wii Fit board and do something physical for the day. This is going to be an interesting journey. With my fat Mii mocking me all the way.

Well here goes something.


  1. I am going to be cheering for you! Remember that with this blog you have a built-in group of people who want you to succeed! If you ever have any problems, I am sure you can post about it and lots of people will be able to help you thru it.

  2. I agree with Deconstruction. Your post yesterday was so honest and heart-felt. I completely respect the struggle you're having right now, and I'll be here rooting you on. You're a driven individual, that's aparent from how well you relay your personality through this blog. I feel like I struggle with my own weight from time to time, but find myself the happiest when I'm just focusing on being active. Running changes a world of things for me.

    And if we lived closer, I'd totally let you follow me home for dinner. I think we'd get along swell if we ever met in person! Our Easter spread was fan-freaking-tastic!

  3. We don't have a scale either, and I never weigh myself because the Wii Fit takes too long! I totally know what you mean! And I hate my when my stupid Mii goes from a stick to a balloon. Totally not right.

    You can do it. You have lots of people who want to see you succeed. If not for yourself, do it for your knees. :)

  4. You can do it and you've got a lot of people out here rooting for you. We'll be here every step of the way through the successes and the (momentary) setbacks.

  5. GO DAISIES! :)
    I think it's wonderful you're putting yourself out there like this and making a big change. I am right behind you :)

  6. Deconstruction: Thank you! I figured this would be a good place to come with this because everyone's support will help encourage me on those off days.

    Cassie: I use to be fairly active, but found myself being less when we moved here. I don't like dealing with the wind and excessive heat during the summer. Your Easter meal did look amazing. I do need to visit the Pacific Northwest, I get the feeling I'd love it there!

    Angela: I'm so glad I am not thee only one who has a deep dislike of their Mii. Have you ever noticed how they pat their bellies when they are waiting for their age? So annoying!

    Laddie: As long as I have you to pester me and be mean when I need it...then I know I will do well!

    Andi: Thank you! It's great to have the support!

  7. oh, dont lose sleep over this. allow yourself to wallow a bit then move on.

    we own a weighing scale but i "left" it at my parents' when we moved out ;p

    shuttling in from SITS :)

  8. know the feeling girl But I think the plan you described is the way to go. that's what I'm doing now, but I have to admit that easter and yesterday I ate LOTS of candy - and I gained weight again! I'm only about 5'2 (not even that really - I really don't tget the cm to feet conversiont though) so every little snack is visible immediatly!

    good luck - I know you can do this

  9. Good luck! I will be cheering you on!!

    Dropping in from SITS - happy Wednesday

    Devan @ Accustomed Chaos

  10. I will also be cheering for you-I know how you feel, I am also 5'7", but I am 230 lbs. I have a large bone structure :o)

    You can do it! It sucks, and it's not fun, and I back slide too, but we can do it!

  11. @Cheri: There will be no sleep lost over this. I've dwelled on this for quite some time and I know that this is what I need to do. I'm ready for it, but I know I will have moments. It's those moments that keep it real.

    @Chennifer: I won't lie...the girl scout cookies have been talking to me (okay I'm talking for them), but so far I have been good. Awesome name by the way!

    @Accustomed: Thanks for stopping by! Thank you for the will be much needed in the coming days!

    @Mrs. M: You and I can both do this. Our bodies need it! I'm rooting for you!